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Wrecked

“You own everything that happened to you. Tell your stories. If people wanted you to write warmly about them, they should have behaved better.” -Anne Lamott, Bird by Bird: Some Instructions on Writing and Life

The rain painted my windshield as I slowly made my way down the freeway on the long trek home, and suddenly it hit me. Hard. Just one song. One tiny song and a flood of words hit me harder than the rain drowning me that night. Words and images and conversations and lovely combinations of sentences surrounded me so much that it was almost hard to see. And as soon as I got home, I put paper to pen, and it all poured out of me; words and thoughts that I had held in for so long were finally free.

There are things in life that you desperately want to write about, but you sometimes you have to wait. Sometimes, it takes awhile to be able to formulate the perfect words to attempt to explain an experience, an event, or a person; it takes time. And before you know it, you have the makings of your first novel. Something that you are really excited about. Something that only reminds you of the thing, the person that you end up always writing about. That you never seem to stop missing. Some things are far too precious to simply throw a few sentences together to describe. You are striving for words that resonate and transcend. Sometimes, you have to be really really patient. But sometimes, some things, the best things, are well worth the wait.

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Halfway There

“Write a song/ Make a note/ For the lump that sits inside your throat/ Change the locks, change the scene/ Change it all but can’t change what we’ve been” -Atlas Genius “Trojans”

I’ve been obsessed with music for as long as I can remember. I have to find lyrics for a song that I hear randomly as soon as possible. I want to know every word and will have those words resonate with me for days. I will listen to the same song over and over and over…and over again. So, it makes sense that I would want to write about music. I would love to go to shows and write about bands that no one knows or that some people know and expose them to the world at large.

As I was searching for internships for music magazines all across the country, I came across a little blurb on Alternative Press’ website, “Start your own webzine or a music blog to showcase your work. Be aware of the scene you enjoy, and soak up any knowledge you can about new bands. The better you understand your source material, the better your writing will be…Most importantly, keep writing constantly. Even if no one but you or your blog followers see your concert reviews, the more you learn to express your opinions via writing, the better your clips will be when you get a chance to publish an article.” 

So, I guess that I’m a little further along than I thought…and I won’t stop here.

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A Letter Away

“I’m winning you with words because I have no other way.” -JayMay “Gray or Blue”

Ella Fitzgerald and Louis Armstrong are pouring through my speakers and my coffee is still hot as I find myself in the middle of a love affair from over a hundred and fifty years ago. What started as an assignment for class, quickly became a lovely morning that soon turned into an afternoon of reading love letters. The 573 love letters between Elizabeth Barrett Browning and Robert Browning are sweet and passionate, and their enthusiasm for one another is apparent from the start. Perhaps, the most wonderful part about their romance in the beginning is that they had never met. Robert Browning was simply an admirer of her work. Two people that had never laid on each other found themselves swept away.

Maybe, it’s the way that Robert says that he hates writing people, besides Elizabeth. Maybe, it’s the way that Elizabeth declares, “It is not true, to my mind-& therefore it is not true that I know little of you, except in as far as it is true (which I believe) that your greatest works are to come. Need I assure you that I shall always hear with the deepest interest every word you will say to me of what you are doing or about to do?” Maybe, it is the way that Robert tells her, “I just shall say, in as few words as I can, that you make me very happy.”  Or maybe, reading about love makes me believe in love even more and reminds me that love could only be a letter away.


		
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Be

It’s completely dark in my apartment, except for the soft glow of my computer. My favorite mix is gently drowning out the street noise as the summer night seeps in through my open windows. I should be working on any of my many writing projects, but instead, I’m just sitting in this moment. There are those tiny moments where your whole world seems still. These moments allow for you to breathe a bit; they allow you just be in your creativity. These moments give you permission to just exist. So, excuse me for awhile as I just let me be.

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Sometimes, I Forget That…

“Aspiring artists defeated by Resistance share one trait. They all think like amateurs. They have not yet turned pro.

The moment an artists turns pro is as epochal as the birth of his first child. With one stroke, everything changes. I can state absolutely that the term of my life can be divided into two parts: before turning pro, and after.

To be clear: When I say professional, I don’t mean doctors and lawyers, those of ‘the professions.’ I mean the Professional as the ideal. The professional in contrast to the amateur. Consider the differences.

The amateur plays for fun. The professional plays for keeps.

To the amateur, the game is his avocation. To the pro, it’s his vocation.

The amateur plays part-time, the professional full-time.

The amateur is a weekend warrior. The professional is there seven days a week.

The word amateur comes from the Latin root meaning ‘to love’. The conventional interpretation is that the amateur pursues his calling out of love, while the pro does it for money. Not the way I see it. In my view. the amateur does not love the game enough. If he did, he would not pursue it as a sideline, distinct from his ‘real’ vocation.

The professional loves it so much he dedicates his life to it. He commits full-time.

Resistance hates it when we turn pro.”

Steven Pressfield (The War of Art)

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Superhero Dreams

“Crowded classrooms and half-day sessions are a tragic waste of our greatest national resource – the minds of our children.” -Walt Disney

When I was in preschool, I would play for hours in my own imaginary world. I would create this alternate universe and be all of the characters in it. My mother asked my teacher if that was normal and my teacher grinned, “She should never stop. She has an imagination.”

I found that I thought the best when I was making up stories or playing in my room. The process of creating situations would only help me figure things out. My best inspirations happen when I am creating. I think better that way. So, I when I first saw Sir Ken Robinson’s TedTalk “Ken Robinson Says Schools Kill Creativity” (http://www.hulu.com/watch/219269/tedtalks-ken-robinson-says-schools-kill-creativity), I felt like someone finally got it.

Math and science were never passions of mine, and I never understood the importance. I just wanted to create and write and perform, but those were the programs that did not carry much weight in school. Those were the programs that were the first to get cut. They were the first programs to be misunderstood. They were the places though where I felt free. I was surrounded by people that felt and lived the same. To be around like minded people allowed me to think, dream, and take bigger risks than ever before. It is not within the boxes that the world thinks are fitting that ideas and dreams are born. It is in movement and freedom that imagination and creativity are truly set free. I think that as we grow older that we lose that feeling. We lose ourselves in routine and responsibilities.

I think that Paula Poundstone said it best, “Adults are always asking little kids what they want to be when they grow up because they’re looking for ideas.” Because honestly, who doesn’t want to be a superhero when they grow up?

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Southern Sweetness

“Went away, holiday/ Wish they’d linger on/ They’ll think what they will/ We’ll stay where we have gone” -Local Natives (Stranger Things)

The blistery November morning in Toronto finally gave way to the slightest ray of sunshine. The bustling coffee shop was buzzing and my words were flowing like they hadn’t in quite awhile. I refilled my tea once or twice and sometimes would find myself relishing in the moment of creative bliss. There was something magical about being in a completely foreign city and feeling at home. The lack of familiarity offered a familiarness all the same. I was not worried about bills, or meetings that I had with people later, or catching up on e-mails and phone calls. Time expanded as I was sitting in that coffee shop in Toronto. It was freeing and, I imagine myself there often.

So, the time has come again for another holiday, and the words are flowing again. Even if it is just waking up in my mother’s house in the South, it is new and refreshing. It is without stress or strain of work, school, or life. It is a precious time when time again expands and waking up to a quiet house is the sweetest sound. The coffee is delicious, the rain is vanishing, and the music is moving my words. So, excuse me as I get lost in this southern sweetness and don’t mind me as I stay gone for just a little while longer.

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It’s Been Awhile

It’s been awhile since I felt truly inspired, since ideas were just flowing, since my fingers couldn’t type fast enough to catch up with all of my thoughts, since my coffee cup was refilled more times than I could count to try and sustain the inspiration, since things just clicked in a way that they hadn’t for so long, since the day faded into night, and I saw the hope in creating again. So hello, inspiration. It’s been awhile, and it’s so sweet to meet you again.

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Pretty New skirt!

“We all write songs about life, we just sing them different.” -Listener (You Were a House on Fire)

Whether I was in Charleston or Greenville, South Carolina or a million cities in between, if there was a skirt! magazine, I would snatch it up in an instant. I would pour over the amazing essays from women for women. Their way with words was a motivation to better my craft. The summer in Charleston when I discovered skirt! for the first time, I could not help but to almost stay in the hotel and re-read the same stories. There was something magical about discovering this magazine in such an enchanting city. Every story was so intimate, and such a breathe of fresh air. One of my silent dreams was to write for this sassy magazine. So, when I received the e-mail welcoming me as a skirt!setter for their blogging community, it’s safe to say that I was pretty excited. So, follow me, love me, or anything else that seems fitting at http://skirt.com/missamanda, and hopefully you will fall in love with skirt! just like I did one summer in Charleston.

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Simply, Simply

“My writing is a compilation of all the things I thought to say, right after I missed the perfect opportunity to say them.” -Rafael Casal

A good friend told me recently that my poems were like razor blades-they cut to the core. I have always had a fascination with words and stories, and I often pour my heart onto torn and frayed fragments of notebook paper. Hours are spent crafting words into the perfect arrangement. Every word needs to be perfect. I don’t always know what to say in the moment, but I always have something to say long after. Lately, I don’t even know what to say after the moment came and passed by. So, to whom it may concern, here’s hoping that you are searching for what to say too. XO

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