Home Run King

“It’s called talent. I just have it. I can’t explain it. You either have it or you don’t.” -Barry Bonds

It normally happens in a bar. Some unsuspecting guy tries to casually start a conversation with me. Somehow the conversation turns to baseball, and somehow I say that I’m a San Francisco Giants fan. And every time, they say, “So, what do you think of Barry Bonds?” And every time I reply, “I think that he holds the record for most home runs. Ever. I think that instead of investigating individual players, someone should be investigating Major League Baseball because they’ve known all along about steroid use; they basically endorse it. It wasn’t until the strike in the ’90′s when baseball was losing money, and they started the home run derby. And what came of that? Sammy Sosa, Mark McGuire, and Jose Canseco shot out of no where to become ‘home run kings’. And where are they now? Their careers took a serious plunge. Steroids can’t make you a great baseball player. You either are, or you aren’t. And Barry Bonds is one of the best.” And that’s just the short version.

As a lifelong Giants fan, I grew up watching Barry Bonds hit one after another out of the park. I remember those summer nights long ago when the entire park would explode every time that he came up to bat. I remember the many rubber chickens that we would put up every time that he would be walked. I remember the FEAR of the other team. I was there the night that we dedicated the left field wall to him after he set the home run record. And while he may not have been every fan’s favorite Giant, they are liars if they say that they did not scream with unending happiness every time that he hit one out of the park. It is sad that people who once chanted his name when he was winning them games, turned their backs on him so quickly. But my motto is once a Giant, always a Giant. And he is ours, forever and always.

So, once I saw the spectacular documentary “Bigger, Stronger, Faster” (http://www.hulu.com/watch/337490/bigger-stronger-faster), I felt even more solid in my defense of Barry. Because once you blame one person for using a “performance enhancing drug”, what separates the next person? As the documentary unfolds, it shows that “performance enhancing drugs” exist in all arenas from the baseball field to the orchestra pit. And if steroids really made a difference or were an indication of talent, then people would be a lot more excited about Manny Ramirez and his new “shiny” half a million dollar deal with the Oakland A’s…or maybe not.


Waiting for Austin

As some of my favorite bands and even my friends make their way to Austin for SXSW, I am left listening to KEXP’s (http://kexp.org/) live streaming at Mellow Johnny’s. But where else could I listen to The Wedding Present, Of Monsters and Men, and Nada Surf live, still in my yoga pants, surrounded by text books, and with a steaming cup of tea? No where. So, thanks KEXP for making this girl’s dreams come true in the tiniest way. And hey Austin, one day this girl will be there. So, please wait for me.


Dearest Me

Dearest Amanda,

I’m sitting here at the kitchen table with the sweet Santa Monica breeze whistling through the window and Now The Rabbit Has The Gun playing in the background. It’s been awhile since I’ve written you, and I think that it is long over-due.

I hope that everything is going well. I hope that you are finding time to write in between the moments of the chaos that is life. I hope that you are sharing your work with a select few. I hope that you find time to sit in silence. I hope that every now and then, you treat yourself to something that no one else knows about. I hope that laughter fills your day in every way. I hope that even when filled with doubt that you still will jump out and take risks-regardless of the outcome. I hope that you are proud of your accomplishments and are ready to create many more. I hope that you can let go of the things that you need too. I hope for all of these and so much more.

Perhaps, in one year, your life will look completely different than it does right now. So, even when you think that there is no magic in the world, remember that the best moments have been the ones that happen when you least expect them. And if you’re still believing that the best moment of your life is now, you are surrounded by magic and don’t even know it.

I love you, lady, and I can’t wait to see what beautiful things you create in this world.

XO,
Me


Yes, Lets

“Baseball is a game, yes. It is also a business. But what it most truly is is disguised combat. For all its gentility, its almost leisurely pace, baseball is violence under wraps.” -Willie Mays

Every spring, the cold drifts, and the adrenaline accelerates. The automatic renewal of my MLB.com memberships makes it offical; it’s baseball season. Hello, churros and Giants dogs. Hello, Buster. Hello, Orange Fridays. Hello, L.A.; it’s too bad that we have to beat you. Hello, Kruk and Kuip. Hello, the coldest nights at AT&T that never seem that cold when we win with a walk-off home run. Hello, boys. See you in October.


Just One More Time

“And there´s gold falling from the ceiling of this world/ Falling from the heartbeat of this girl” -Angus and Julia Stone (And The Boys)

A sexy silence filled my favorite cafe in Hollywood as I absorbed the stunning afternoon in my little nook. The light was bouncing wildly off of the reflections of the plethora of Audrey Hepburn pictures. I was devouring the loveliest turkey pesto sandwich and iced mocha, when something intoxicating found my eardrums. It was provocative and seduced me in a way that I wasn’t expecting. I couldn’t stop myself. I jumped up and asked the barista, “Who is this?” He smiled with a look of recognition and appreciation, “Angus and Julia Stone.” And he played it again.


Now is the Best Moment of Your Life

“This moment contains all moments.” -C.S. Lewis

I have often found myself living in far away places in my future and even made my way back to places that I left long again. However, I rarely live in now. And when I do, I quickly find myself fleeting off somewhere else. The truth is that there is a reason that the past is the past and that the future has not been revealed yet. So, thanks to “Dating Rules from My Future Self” (dating-rules-from-my-future-self-u-can-get-it-if-u-really-want), I have a new motto and a moment to live in forever.


Stupid Bitch

“Look at your life. Look at your choices.” -Sassy Gay Friend

It was a blistery night as the cold Santa Monica air seeped into every open crevice of the dark classroom. My Shakespeare professor continued to get up and down to adjust the volume for the full three hours. Vapid girls were chattering around me, and I was trying desperately to concentrate. I wish that I could say that those silly girls were the ones that were distracting me, but I was distracting myself. As I was becoming more and more involved in the story, I only heard the haunting words of Sassy Gay Friend, “You took a roofie from a priest”, and giggled a little too loudly.

Sure, we can laugh at Juliet for being a “stupid bitch”, but if only we all had our own Sassy Gay Friend. We probably would all have gotten a lot less sad, way less drunk, and made some better life decisions. So, wake up, move on, and be happy. Yeah, I’m talking to you. You, stupid bitch.


If You Can’t Say Anything True, Then Don’t Say Anything At All

“Say anything, but say what you mean” -Mae (Suspension)

In a world that is full of static and glitter, maybe, just maybe, we can break through and allow our words to hold weight again.


With or Without You

“Do the things that you always wanted to/ Without me there to hold you back, don’t think, just do/ More than anything I want to see you, girl/ Take a glorious bite out of the whole world” – Snow Patrol (You Could Be Happy)

Soon enough, I will be walking down the aisle, changing diapers, and a long list of things that will make this time in my life seem so very far away. So, to be ready for that time, I need to take advantage of this time.

I Don’t Have a Ring on My Finger or a Bun in the Oven, But…

1. I can sleep in late on my days off, and I don’t have to worry about someone hogging the entire bed.

2. Dinner can be whatever I want it to be.

3. My apartment can be as clean or cluttered as I would like it.

4. I can take as long as I want to in the bathroom.

5. At the drop of a hat, I can go visit friends or get out of town for the weekend.

6. I can completely concentrate on school.

7. I can leave my “wand” and make-up out in the bathroom.

8. Friends can come over and stay over as long as they would like.

9. I don’t have in-laws.

10. I can spend hours writing in silence.

11. I don’t have to make sandwiches for the “poker game”.

12. Nick Jr. isn’t playing non-stop at my house.

13. I can buy those awesome heels or funky piece of art and not feel guilty.

14. I can pick up and move anywhere that I want to.

15. The only dirty laundry that I do is my own.

16. I’m the best bridesmaid.

17. Girls’ night out is a regular occurrence-not something that happens every six months.

18. My schedule is my own, and I have no one to answer to.

19. I can watch that episode of “Friends” for the two-thousandth time and not hear anyone complain.

20. My day doesn’t revolve around “nap time”.

21. I’m saving for that trip for my best friend’s wedding or abroad, instead of for the kids’ college tuition.

22. I have no crazy ex-girlfriends to worry about.

23. The toilet seat is always down.

24. I can spend eight hours in Hollywood at an acoustic in-store, a full evening of improv, not come home until two o’clock in the morning on a Tuesday, and not have someone asking, “Where have you been?!”

25. I’m happy.


Punching Penguins

“ARE YOU LISTENING?!” -Emery (Walls)

If you happen to be in Boiling Springs, South Carolina on Thursday, February 23rd, you just may have the night of your life. It is not only the very first show at Sound Stage Music Hall (www.facebook.com/soundstagemusichall), but former Tooth and Nail band, Spoken, will be playing for only eight dollars. And definitely do not miss the grand opening of Sound Stage Music Hall on Sunday, February 26 with Oh the Calamity, East West, Kaleb Alexander and more. So, get there early because it is sure to be a packed house of ridiculous proportions.

And in case you missed it, here is the interview that my boy, Kyle Cheleotis, from Upstate Recordings and Management did with GoUpstate.com (http://www.goupstate.com/article/20120209/ENT/202091002?tc=ar).

Things like this don’t come to the Upstate or Boiling Springs often. It is time for some much over-due recognition of the phenomenal bands that are bubbling in the underground. So, please come out and support this effort. This is the beginning of something spectacular in the Upstate, and you should be there with chanting arms.


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